紫蔷薇，
能够在阴郁的天气里散发出那浓烈的香气，
飘散到七里之外的地方。

信息，
也能够这样吗？
不管多遥远的距离，也能够传达到，
传达到有你，有我的地方，
可能吗？

how can one define 'the right atmosphere, the right timing, the right words'? how do you know that it is really RIGHT & in the first place, why is there a need for those when situations that dont even require those arise?

whatever, im not making any sense here but thats just something i have been pondering over for months, to the extent of wasting my sleep time just to think about it. stupid i know. but yeah, one word, whatever. it doesnt even matter anymore, when i think about it now.

就让琴声那冰冷的绝望
在大雨中继续弹奏着

放不下的面具
黑暗的天空
冷冷的大雨

世界无声
消失在这一刻
到底还有什么是真实的呢?

ha-ha. to think i believed wholeheartedly
defending when necessary
interfering more than i could
&what's expected comes so naturally anyway.
to the extent that i bore with it for months
trying to stop myself from sinking deeper into those depths
trying to stop myself from thinking so negatively

&now, all i can say &want to say is,
i dont care anymore.

since apparently i was not meant to be part of this
never meant to be as close as what i thought
if the above all rings true and sound,
then i really feel like saying,

i give up cuz it was never meant to be.
im sorry, for thinking too much,
thinking too highly of myself.

&i would never do all those stuff again.
thanks for shining light on this issue,
i would never think too much again.
because, i wouldnt want to bother &interfere anymore.

to remember or to forget...; 12:44 AM

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