might as well take this chance and update long posts once &for all, just in case my com crashes again ><
徘了徊了走了错了哭了懂了累了倦了困了
烦的乱的梦的都是真的
疯的想的念的不安的焦虑的浮躁的梦过的
永远的失去的怎么忘呢
i wonder, i cant really understand myself, why this has happened &i really dont know what i am supposed to do to make everything go back to normal. its just... i dont know how to say it, but the thing is, everything seems different. is it me who has changed? or everyone who has changed? perhaps this is something i would not find out i suppose.
非常想要忘的绝对不能忘得
我的快乐会回来的
离开不是谁给了谁的选择
i just feel like running away from all these. to make myself stop thinking of all these random thoughts fleeting across my mind. lessons dont help at all. they only add on to the burden. just why am i so stupid. ah-ha im too stupid to even figure that question out i guess.
too many things kept in the dark. i wish i hadnt even guessed them before realising that i am not supposed to know them. because &just because there are too many implications which i dont know and never want to know, i rather i never took the time to think about them. perhaps life would be better off that way, to know nothing &stay happy, never realising that there are some stuffs that i have missed out because of certain implications.
there's this song lyrics that i think are quite nice, except the song aint really my taste. but yeah.
潘朵拉的玻璃瓶
海伦那的魔法镜
天上的星星 地上的眼睛
谁也 看不懂真心
迷雾森林幻境里
王子傻傻的苏醒
妖魔的世纪 天使的心情
谁来 握住你手心
睁开眼 认清迷惘人间
纯真只是谎言 承诺等於後悔
不如让 我亲吻你的颈边
拿走 你不需要的热血
亲爱的王子 别害怕
我将对你倾诉撒旦的情话
反正魔鬼亦睁只眼
反正天神亦闭只眼
没有人会想来改变这世界
亲爱的王子 别再哭
从今以後 不再孤独
没有感动 没知觉
享受 幻灭
然後 当你不再有希望
潘朵拉的玻璃瓶
海伦那的魔法镜
天上的星星 地上的眼睛
谁也 看不懂真心
迷雾森林幻境里
王子傻傻的苏醒
妖魔的世纪 天使的心情
谁来 握住你手心
睁开眼 认清迷惘人间
亲爱的王子 别害怕
我将对你倾诉撒旦的情话
反正魔鬼亦睁只眼
反正天神亦闭只眼
没有人会想来改变这世界
亲爱的王子 别再哭
从今以後 不再孤独
没有感动 没知觉
享受 幻灭
然後 当你不再有希望
然後 你就不会再受伤
然後 你就会得到力量
生命 是一部黑色童话
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现实和幻想，果然是有差距的……
只有在夜里和雨里，才能找回到自己.
; 11:47 PM
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