after looking at wuyi's blog, i suddenly remembered how i used to hate myself in sec4, &i realised that till now, that feeling has not changed. i still do hate myself. for being so mean to people, to friends, to family. for being such a failure, cant even pass a single subject. for being an annoying &irritating idiot, who know only knows how to find fault about people, talking bout them ¬ realising that i have even greater flaws.
some might say, since you know all these, so why dont u change? ha-ha. i dont know. perhaps im just too dumb to i suppose. anyways thats what people have been telling me. &gradually over time, i have gotten to accept it since so many people say so.
why u dont want to do it urself, always ask others how to do everything? IF i knew how to do it, i wouldnt be asking already, would i. so i gather, since i dont know how to do so many things, im just too stupid for words ba. &this post is just something crappy that i have been thinking about, not that im wallowing in self pity or whatever.
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9:18 PM
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